my (bad) habit

a cup of tea,my lophly marlboro menthol and fav playlist...thats what i like to do in my spare time:)

the cure

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you say
I just can't stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
Every way to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you do
I know I'll never really get inside of you
To make your eyes catch fire
The way they should
The way the blue could pull me in
If they only would
If they only would
At least I'd lose this sense of sensing something else
That hides away
From me and you
There're worlds to part
With aching looks and breaking hearts
And all the prayers your hands can make

Oh I just take as much as you can throw
And then throw it all away
Oh I throw it all away
Like throwing faces at the sky
Like throwing arms round
Yesterday
I stood and stared
Wide-eyed in front of you
And the face I saw looked back
The way I wanted to
But I just can't hold my tears away
The way you do

Elise... believe I never wanted this
I thought this time I'd keep all of my promises
I thought you were the girl always dreamed about
But I let the dream go
And the promises broke
And the make-believe ran out...

Oh elise
It doesn't matter what you say
I just can't stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
Every way to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

And every time I try to pick it up
Like falling sand
As fast as I pick it up
It runs away through my clutching hands
But there's nothing else I can really do
There's nothing else I can really do
There's nothing else
I can really do
At all...

listening

hah..dya lagi..dya lagi..

hehe..
iseng gag bisa tidur..
ok jg ney hasilna..
uhuyyy..

so sad...

god..

knp semua jd begini?

bisakah semua aku ulang kembali..

dan aku tidak pernah masuk ke dalam duniana..

tak mengacawkan hidupna..

aku tahu,

bahwa

aku hanya berandai-andai..

mungkin...cukup...

apa yang dya tunggu..

apa yg aku tunggu..

sebetulna hanyalah semu..

kosong..

kita hanya berharap,

tapi tak berani melangkah..

jujurlah..mungkin semua ini bukanlah yg kita butuhkan,

mungkin kita sudah lelah..

lalu?...

biar saja enyah..

punah semua,

dan lanjutkan lagi perjalanan kita masing-masing..

sakit,tapi mungkin lebih terasa sakit

saat kita mempertahankan kaki kita untuk berdiri di persimpangan ini..

aku ingin bersandar..

cukup,berhentilah..

karna sebetulna kita hanya berdiam selama ini,

tidak ada yang kita lakukan,

hanya termangu meratapi jejak yang suda berlalu..

cukup..

aku berjalan di jalurku,

dan kamu..teruskanlah hidupmu..

yeaa!!!